Why a Blog?

Fortunately or unfortunately, I can laugh about this, I was "cursed" by my two best friends. My high school buddy told me that my writing stinks and my college friend told me that my public speaking stinks. They both told me individually that I should not pursue career in them. In my previous career, as a computer programmer, I didn't need them that much. But now as one serving Christ, I find them so essential in my serving. So what should I do? Give up? Serve in my limited capacity? I think that there are some truths to what my friends have observed in me. I am very sure that I will never be Billy Graham nor Ernest Hemingway. However, the sad thing is that I have been defeated by these "curses" and they are curses. Now, I realize that I have to climb out of these wells so that I can convey the wonderfulness of my Savior. Also, few years ago, a brother who I was caring for said "If you think that you cannot write, what about me?"

Following is my inspiration from July 27, 2005:

"What an awesome fulfillment of praise and prophecy? Psalm 89:1 'I will sing of the lovingkindness of Jehovah forever. From generation to generation I will make known Your faithfulness with my mouth.' Still David is speaking to my generation. May my generation and my children's generation will also hear Your faithfulness from my mouth! [Because he wrote]. Oh Lord, I need your encouragement to write!"

Today, I wanted to make sure that Psalm 89 was written by David. But behold, my Bible says that it was a "Maschil of Ethan the Ezrahite." What is a Maschil and who is Ethan? Ha. Ha. I think that this is pretty funny. I was inspired by wrong facts. But you know what, I just feel that my struggle is still the same. I need to get out of these curses. Lord Jesus, do you think that I can publish one day? Lord Jesus, do you think that I can minister You in a stadium. If I am going to ask, I mind as well as ask big. Is this too small? Jesus, You figure out the size. I just know that I would like to have the confidence to speak and write for You. Lord Jesus, it will be really cool if future generations will be inspired by me to love You and follow You absolutely!